Thursday, February 9, 2012

Just the Mom

More lab results.  More ways that lab results don't make sense for what we are thinking.  More paths to explore.  Hard day on AJ.

I don't have the strength to go into it right now and I feel like whatever I say will likely not apply a few hours from now anyway.

I am a Mom.  I am the Mom.  Some days I want to be JUST the Mom.  I feel it must be true of all special needs moms.  Some days I just don't want to be the Dr., I just want to be the mom.  I don't want to be the detective I just want to be the mom.  I don't want to be the eyes and ears of the far away doctors, I just want to be the mom.  I don't want to be the dietitian, the allergist, the mad scientist, the physical therapist or any other therapist; I just want to be the mom.

Today is one of those days, but it is not an option.  I guess I will just look forward to and remember to thoroughly enjoy the next day I get to be, just the Mom.  

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